This heartfelt novel for fans of Jandy Nelson and Adam Silvera follows twins Audrey and Clare as they grapple with their brother’s death and their changing relationships—with each other and themselves.

Audrey’s best friend was always her twin, Clare. But as they got older, they grew apart, and when their brother Adam died, Clare blamed Audrey for the accident. Now, Audrey’s attending an alternative school where she feels more isolated than ever. Tired of being seen as different from her neurotypical peers, Audrey’s determined to switch to the public high school, rebuild her friendship with Clare, and atone for Adam’s death . . . but she’ll need to convince her parents, and her therapist, first.

Clare knows her sister thinks she’s the perfect twin, but Audrey doesn’t realize that Clare’s “popular” status is crumbling—she’s begun to question old friendships, dress in Adam’s clothes, and wonder what feelings for a nonbinary classmate, Taylor, might mean. As she grapples with not only grief but also her gender fluidity, Clare wonders where she’ll belong if she sheds her carefully constructed image and embraces her true self.

Will first crushes, new family dynamics, and questions of identity prove that Audrey and Clare have grown too different to understand each other—or that they’ve needed each other all along?

• Books About Twins: Audrey and Clare were once inseparable. Now, separated by schools and secrets, they must confront the tragedy that tore them apart to find out if their twin bond is truly broken.
• Gender Identity Exploration: As Clare questions her place in the popular crowd, she also explores her feelings for a nonbinary classmate and a growing sense of her own gender fluidity, wondering who she’ll be if she stops pretending.
• Neurodivergent Protagonist: Tired of being seen as different at her alternative school, Audrey is determined to prove she can be just like everyone else—even if it means hiding the parts of herself that make her unique.
• Grief and Loss: In the wake of their brother Adam’s death, both sisters are drowning in guilt and grief. But with one twin blaming the other for the accident, healing feels impossible.
• Heartfelt Family Drama: A beautifully written, emotional story perfect for readers who love the complex family dynamics and heartbreaking honesty of authors like Jandy Nelson and Adam Silvera.